Friday, December 14, 2018

Saddened by Your Absence

I can’t believe this sadness I feel by your absence

I was more saddened by you not saying goodbye 
Did I hurt you for saying ‘NO’ coming with you?
You know why, I am not free to be with you

I am surprise by all these crazy daily thoughts of you
I can’t stop thinking about you, crazy but it’s true
But everyday I see you which is worst than I thought
I am not free to explore these crazy feelings for you

Everyday I ask myself why, I can’t ask for more
God loves me, he gave me everything I want in life
I can’t ask for more but why I am saddened by
The thoughts of making you mine is impossible 

I try to diverse my thought of you by pushing you
To like someone else, so these feelings will go away
Yet I was hurt by the thoughts of you will liking  her
I was surprised and happy to know, you don’t like her

I don’t want you to fix your physical insecurity
Because you will start looking and liking someone else
I don’t want to share you with someone, I am selfish 
I want you to stay single and I am not free to love you 

I cannot give you the physical satisfaction, because 
I am not free yet I am selfish, I want you to stay free
I don’t know what I want from you, what if you ask? 
Where will I place you in my life ?





Sunday, December 2, 2018

The Song

Crazy but it’s true
My head is spinning for something that can never be because I already love the life that I have ..,

Delicate
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Dive bar on the East Side, where you at?
Phone lights up my nightstand in the black
Come here, you can meet me in the back
Dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you
Oh damn, never seen that color blue
Just think of the fun things we could do
'Cause I like you
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
Yeah, I want you
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Delicate
Third floor on the West Side, me and you
Handsome, your mansion with a view
Do the girls back home touch you like I do?
Long night, with your hands up in my hair
Echoes of your footsteps on the stairs
Stay here, honey, I don't wanna share
'Cause I like you
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
Yeah, I want you
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Delicate
Sometimes I wonder when you sleep
Are you ever dreaming of me?
Sometimes when I look into your eyes
I pretend you're mine, all the damn time
'Cause I like you
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Yeah, I want you
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
'Cause I like you
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Yeah, I want you
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Delicate