Friday, December 14, 2018

Saddened by Your Absence

I can’t believe this sadness I feel by your absence

I was more saddened by you not saying goodbye 
Did I hurt you for saying ‘NO’ coming with you?
You know why, I am not free to be with you

I am surprise by all these crazy daily thoughts of you
I can’t stop thinking about you, crazy but it’s true
But everyday I see you which is worst than I thought
I am not free to explore these crazy feelings for you

Everyday I ask myself why, I can’t ask for more
God loves me, he gave me everything I want in life
I can’t ask for more but why I am saddened by
The thoughts of making you mine is impossible 

I try to diverse my thought of you by pushing you
To like someone else, so these feelings will go away
Yet I was hurt by the thoughts of you will liking  her
I was surprised and happy to know, you don’t like her

I don’t want you to fix your physical insecurity
Because you will start looking and liking someone else
I don’t want to share you with someone, I am selfish 
I want you to stay single and I am not free to love you 

I cannot give you the physical satisfaction, because 
I am not free yet I am selfish, I want you to stay free
I don’t know what I want from you, what if you ask? 
Where will I place you in my life ?





Sunday, December 2, 2018

The Song

Crazy but it’s true
My head is spinning for something that can never be because I already love the life that I have ..,

Delicate
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Dive bar on the East Side, where you at?
Phone lights up my nightstand in the black
Come here, you can meet me in the back
Dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you
Oh damn, never seen that color blue
Just think of the fun things we could do
'Cause I like you
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
Yeah, I want you
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Delicate
Third floor on the West Side, me and you
Handsome, your mansion with a view
Do the girls back home touch you like I do?
Long night, with your hands up in my hair
Echoes of your footsteps on the stairs
Stay here, honey, I don't wanna share
'Cause I like you
This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
Yeah, I want you
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it?
Delicate
Sometimes I wonder when you sleep
Are you ever dreaming of me?
Sometimes when I look into your eyes
I pretend you're mine, all the damn time
'Cause I like you
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Yeah, I want you
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
'Cause I like you
Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate (delicate)
Yeah, I want you
Is it cool that I said all that
Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Delicate

Sunday, September 23, 2018

Bucket of Squash Harvest

Hubby cleaned up our Vegetable Garden in preparation for cold season, so he got this much Bucket of Squash.



I still have a lot of cleaning to do on my backyard and just thinking about it makes me feel tired already. But that is the purpose of gardening, labour and see the fruit later.

I need to transfer some of my plants to have more room for my vegetables next year. 

Monday, September 3, 2018

Garlic Bulbs for Planting

I have been waiting for the garlic bulbs to be available on store but they just don’t have it yet. And buying some garlic bulbs for planting online is ridiculously expensive. Then I found a seller who grow garlic on their own backyard for reasonable price. I drove just about 20 mins to  I pick 12 Garlic Bulbs for Planting.



I am so happy that my search for Garlic Bulbs for Planting is finally over. I can now grow garlic on my backyard. Although it’s still early to have Garlic Bulbs since I am planting it on my backyard sometime next month, I just want to make sure that I have the Garlic Bulbs because I seriously want to try growing Garlic on my own. And who knows, I might be able to sell it online someday. 

Saturday, September 1, 2018

Zucchini Cake Fresh from my Garden

I finally made my Zuccini Cake using one big Zuccini I harvested from my garden.


The recipe I got says to squeeze the juice of zucchini but I forgot to do it. Funny but I turned out to taste better because it made my cake more moist.


Cinnamon Zucchini Cake Recipe

Bowl 1

  • 3 Eggs (beat)
  • 1/2 Cup Vegetable Oil
  • 1/2 Cup Applesauce 
  • 3/4 Cup Sugar
  • 3/4 Cup Brown Sugar ( I use only 1/2 cup)
  • 2 tsp vanilla

Bowl 2

  • 2 1/2 Cup Flour
  • 1/4 tsp Baking Powder
  • 1/4 tsp Baking Soda
  • 1 1/2 tsp Cinnamon powder
  • 2 Cups Shredded Zuccini 

Mix the 2 bowls
And bake at 350*C for 30 to 45 mins

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Starting to Grow Strawberries 🍓

My kids love strawberries so I thought of growing strawberries in my garden and hoping to grow more on years to come.


I purchased this strawberry plant last spring and I am so happy that it is starting to produce some fruits. Not only that, it is growing fast and producing new baby plants.





I am having a second thought of planting it directly on the ground or on pots. I have a dog so it has to be a high raise bed. 

It also said that strawberries shouldn’t be planted near vegetables or place where you previously grow vegetables, so I can’t plant them on my vegetable garden. 

Hence, I am  thinking of buying some nice pots for my strawberries to make it look nice to put somewhere in my backyard. 


Tuesday, August 21, 2018

Growing Garlic Indoor Update

As I’ve mentioned on one of my posts, that I am Trying To Grow Garlic Indoor. Here is the update after less than three weeks since I planted the garlic cloves. I am still waiting for about 3 more cloves to sprout.



I am so happy to see some sprouts. I never thought that it will grow because the cloves that I planted were to get spoiled. But anyway, these batch I am planning to bring indoor before winter. I will plant more to grow on my vegetable garden on Fall to leave on winter, and hopefully to harvest more next summer